Society’s dream

As the darkest hour set upon my soul, so too did the brightest light shine. The revolution of consciousness, which is now beholden to me, could not have been possible in my world without this darkest hour being reached. For how could I have set myself free from the chains when I did not even see the chains that clasped around my ankles? How could I have changed my life so completely when I did not even recognise that it needed changing? How could I become who I am, when I was still caught up in who I was not?

My journey as a stockbroker, in both the bustling city of London and the high flying island of Hong Kong, took me to the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. It pulled me through a den of iniquities whilst capturing my heart with fast cars, designer clothes and expensive nights out. But little did I know that my heart, in that moment, was not true and that the lies that I told myself to help me sleep at night, would soon pull me deeper into the darkness of my broken dreams.

It is the dream, is it not, of society to see us in fast-paced jobs that enrich our bank accounts whilst diminishing our souls. To see us chasing the money whilst we chase our tails. To leave us broken and bruised as we unravel into who we are not instead of empowering ourselves into who we truly are.

But this is a journey that can not be sustained. We can not continue to chase who we are not and hope to find peace in our hearts. We can not continue to give ourselves fully to a system that does not give itself fully to us. We can not continue to bend and break to the will of others whilst dismissing our will, our dreams and our passions.

And so, as I let my dreams be bent and shaped by society’s will, so too did I allow myself to be brutalised by all that would hold me under. As sickness coiled at my feet, pulling me under, slowly and painfully taking its grip upon me, I found myself becoming everything that I was not instead of everything that I was.

As I refused to listen to the warning signs of my body, which were simply the physically manifested calling of my soul to see the light, to recognise the truth, I became more engulfed by the sea of darkness that took hold. 

Freedom called from my soul but I could not hear its gentle whispering through the beating drum of my self-enslavement. I could not see the truth that it tried to show me through the sound of society’s lies. I could not see that I was not free.

It took six years of ill health, stress and heartache for me to finally see the light. To walk away from who you are not when you do not yet know who you are takes courage, strength and wisdom. Courage and strength that I found in my weakest moment. For it is from the darkest hour that the light is born and from our weakest moments that our true strength can be called upon. 

To turn my back on all that I knew to become the person that I am today took hard work, persistence and resilience. It saw me facing my biggest fears and challenging all that I knew and all that I had been taught. It saw me rebuilding my heart into the powerhouse that it now is so that I could walk my path with a Lion’s heart. It taught me that sometimes our biggest fears and challenges can end up being our biggest gifts. It taught me to be fearless even when fear crept around my feet. It taught me to be who I am, in all of my entirety, even when I did not yet know who I was, for who I was was perfect, in every moment, in every way, because who I was was me.

Through my journey, I have learned to understand that we all hold this power within us. I have learned that we can all shine our light brightly if only we did not allow it to be diminished by society’s will. I have learned how to help set others free from their chains, in the same way that I was set free from mine.

I have learned to gently guide people to reconnect back with their natural gifts and passions and to help them follow their dreams even when their dreams seem impossible. I have learned that our dreams are the very essence of who we are, in every moment, in every way and that when we give them up, so too do we give up all that we are and all that we can be. I have learned that freedom does not have to come with a cost, whilst giving our freedom away costs us everything. I have learned that being exactly who we are, who we were born to be, is the ultimate freedom, the ultimate goal. I have learned to be me, and through being me, I have learned to help you to be you, in all of your glory and all of your power, in all of your passion and all of your strength, for when we are us, truly and simply, we are healed from all that stopped our natural flow. When we are healed we are free.